When God says, "Change"

I receive daily devotions by email and today's said a few things that really struck a chord for me. It talked about moving to a different place to be able to grow once again in the Sonlight.

"It often involves change; sometimes a dramatic change. A change in habits, a ridding of addictions, a move in friendships, a laying down of dreams, or a picking up of one that you have feared."

For the last year I have struggled with being on one of my church's worship teams. I have struggled some with the team that I'm on, but even more, I have felt burned out and weary. Last year I thought of taking a few months off. I was afraid that if I took a much needed break, that there would be changes made and I would not be able to get back on a team for a while. I didn't think I wanted to quit completely. I knew that there would probably be changes made once our congregation moved into our new building. I thought maybe I should hold off on my decision until that time. Rusty agreed with me.

In May my throat started acting funny. I quickly realized that I was unable to sing and would need to take a break. I was more than happy to have a few months off. During this time, worship changes did in fact start to take place with our new building about finished. In July I found out what the deal was with my throat and realized that while it was something highly annoying, it was not serious. I could sing again soon.

During this break, I realized that I was considering quitting all together. That surprised me somewhat. I thought I would miss it too much. I haven't. Or maybe I should say that I miss it a little on Sundays while in church, but not at any other time. It's almost been a relief to be free of it, and I've been surprised that I would even think of it in that way - free of it. I've been praying about it a lot over the last year, and I now feel like God is telling me to give this up. God could not really call me to do anything else at church because worship took up so much of my time. Even though I feel that it's the right thing to do, it's still hard to quit after being a part of worship for 10 years.

After reading today's devotion, I heard God speaking to me once again. Change, Rachel. Move. I immediately emailed my worship leaders and let them know that I need a few minutes with them on Sunday.

God is moving me. Where to, you ask? You will have to stay tuned! I have a feeling that whatever God calls me to next will move me outside of my comfort zone, stretch me, be a little uncomfortable, and probably be quite scary for a while. I know, however, that he will equip me to do whatever he calls me to next.