Noise and Clamor

It often feels like my head is so crammed full with words and thoughts that I don't have clarity on anything. Nothing rises above the clamor. Some nights I lay in bed, my mind churning and chewing, wishing I could flip a switch and just turn my brain off!

This lack of clarity can make accomplishing much of anything difficult. I can't focus or concentrate. I can't keep my mind from flitting from one thought to the next like a hyperactive butterfly fluttering from flower to flower. (Can butterflies be hyperactive?)

I much prefer the days when my little brain is firing on all cylinders - plowing efficiently through work and multitasking with ease. I like checking things off lists - a sense of accomplishment with each check.

As I type this my mind keeps trying to recall the lyrics to the Steven Curtis Chapman song Be Still and Know. I look the lyrics up and these words speak to me now:

Be still oh restless soul of mine
Bow before the Prince of Peace
Let the noise and clamor cease

Restless.
Noise.
Clamor.

That has been me of late, restless with a mind full of noise and clamor. I suppose that has been me over the last year, which is why I haven't blogged as much. Too many words, thoughts, things, tasks, worries, lists, activities... Too. Much.

I long for peace. I long to be still. I long for clarity. Please Lord, quiet my soul.

I'm putting this out there, hoping to find I'm not alone. Do you have days (or weeks, or years) like this?