Um, you know that word I chose for the year? Growth?
Is it too late to change my mind?
The thing is, one night last week as I was laying in bed I thought about how hard spiritual and personal growth can be. Yeah, I'm not really looking forward to that. I didn't really think about how painful growth can be when I chose it as my word. I don't mean that I didn't think about what the word means, I just didn't think about how scary it can be. KWIM, God?
When I think of last year - how hard it was - I don't think I can handle that again. I don't think I'm strong enough.
Unless you can teach me all the stuff I need to learn without the growing pains. Probably not.
Ok, then I'll just have to leave this all up to you, Lord.
Amen.

You don't have to be "strong enough." You can do all things through Christ, because HE gives you strength.
ReplyDeleteAnd don't forget your friends are here for you, too. :hug:
Praying for you, dear Rachel.
ReplyDeleteI'm tired of the painful growing process too, Rachel.
ReplyDeleteYour post is well said.