In the waiting

Confession time: I do not wait very well. I worry. I want to learn to wait better because I feel like I spend all of my time waiting and then worrying. I find myself wondering if anything will ever change. Life has not turned out quite the way I expected. There are certain things I didn't expect to wait on indefinitely. I find it frustrating and irritating. I struggle with anger and try hard not to snap at everyone around me. How do I deal with situations where I may never see a resolution? This is my biggest struggle. Will I ever not have to wait? Will any of these issues ever be resolved? It is very hard to persevere.

It is hard to be patient when it seems others do not have to wait or only have to wait a short period of time. I realize I do not see everyone's inner struggles, which means I cannot see everything they have to wait on. I try to consciously acknowledge this, but it is hard to hold on to the thought all the time.

I know I need to continually keep truth at the forefront of my mind. In order to do that today, I will list some (hard) truths about waiting.

Lamentations 3:24
I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."

• God does not waste our waiting
• We learn things in our waiting that we could not learn any other way
• Our waiting can benefit other people
• God does not promise to end my waiting the way I think he should
• God is waiting with me – I am not alone
• My heart is fickle – God's is not